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10:44 pm
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| Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
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6:07 pm - If I die and go to tell real soon, it will appear to me as this room..
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I swear some people keep breathing just to make my life miserable.
current mood:  aggravated
current music: Say Anything
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| Sunday, October 8th, 2006
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9:09 pm - I hope everybody gets to experience this..
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So many times before I though I felt the feeling of love.
I suppose I have, but I've never felt the feeling of being IN love.
And I never knew the difference until now.
Once before I thought I was in love, but I know that I was just in love with the idea of it.
And nothing more than that.
The way I feel now compares to nothing else in the world.
I dont need to be with him every minute of the day because the time spent apart is still time spent full of loving moments.
And even though every second away from him feels like forever, it's only that much more gratifying when when I look into his eyes.
He never lets a day go by without letting me know how much I mean to him, and thats what means to most.
Just the thought of him completes me.
I feel safe from the world in his arms, and the truth is, Ive never fallen so hard.
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| Sunday, October 1st, 2006
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10:55 am - Just figured Id send an update..
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I havnt updated mainly because I dont think anybody reads this.
But also because I havnt really had much to say these days.
Im about to leave to go to my grandparents house, I havnt seen them in a while.
Thing with Josh and I are amazing. :]
Im flying back out and staying for a week in November.
Even though he's far right now, he still lets me know he's here for me.
When he's at work he calls me on every break.
Leaves me texts to wake up to in the morning..
Calls me at night before bed so we can talk about our day.
I just missed the feeling of knowing somebody has my back.
I've always been there for everybody in my life, and I cant say that Ive always gotten that returned.
Even is past relationships.
Anyway! Ive been busy with school and work and stuff.
But other than that things are going very well.
<3!
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| Thursday, September 14th, 2006
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11:23 pm
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I hate when people try to make me feel bad about my life.
They make it seem like Im trying to avoid them, and like Im not talking to them on purpose when the fact is, Im honestly just busy.
I work from 7am-6:30pm, and then head right off to school from 7-10.
When I come home, I eat dinner, shower, and talk to my boyfriend on the phone for an hour before I go to bed.
I get online when I can because I want to be able to talk to my friends.
When I get on i want to have nive conversations.. not conversations like..
"Oh I guess youre too busy for me."
Sorry I have a life outside of our friendship.
Im busy because I have to bust my ass, nothing Ive ever had has been handed to me.
And it just pisses me off that people cant see that Im doing my best.
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| Tuesday, August 15th, 2006
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8:38 pm - I lied.
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I'm in love.
current mood:  excited
current music: A Change of Pace
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| Wednesday, July 26th, 2006
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8:23 am - I think Im getting rid of my LJ
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I really dont use it..
Does anybody have Xanga?
Because thats what I use.
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| Wednesday, July 12th, 2006
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3:53 pm - I want you staplegunned right to my side...
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| Thursday, July 6th, 2006
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3:02 pm - Well..
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I went home for a week.
Im back now.
But I had an eventful time.
The tire of my car fell off while in motion.
It was scary, but Im ok.
Went to a kegger on the 4th of July.
I dunno.
I start classes in 4 days.
I go to Kentucky in 28 days.
Life is good.
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| Monday, June 26th, 2006
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9:50 pm - Wooooooow.
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| Tuesday, June 20th, 2006
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2:55 pm
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Ive been thinking about a lot of things lately.
And Ive been driving myself a little crazy.
I feel like no matter what I say now,
I have to watch my mouth so I dont offend anybody.
If you'd actually listen to what I had to say,
Maybe youd realize that not everything I say is about you.
Yes, I think about you.
But its not like that anymore.
I just wonder why theres hostility there.
I feel like even if I bent over backwards for you..
At this point, it wouldnt even matter.
And that sucks,
Cuz I think youre amazing.
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current music: Misery Signals
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| Sunday, June 18th, 2006
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1:05 pm - Just once.. Lets do something different.
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I used to hold you like it's all that I had..
Now begins the falling out, we are like a passing fad.
Your mouth would crack a smile if I were spoken of
'Till tonight you never thought
you'd lose this epic battle with love.
For what it's worth, I've always admired you.
I always thought that we could make it through.
Now look what time can do..
It took our masterpiece we built and broke it in two.
I always believed in you, I always loved you.
And this is so difficult for the both of us,
I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us.
Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game.
All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing -
Nothing will ever be the same.
current mood:  confused
current music: Boys Night Out
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| Saturday, June 17th, 2006
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9:50 am - ...
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| Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
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10:13 am - SAWA LYNN!
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I LOVE YOU!
Everything is gonna work out.
I was in the same situation you were a week ago.
Im fine now, and we're the same people.
So you'll be fine too.
<33333333
current mood:  indifferent
current music: Cartel
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| Saturday, June 3rd, 2006
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8:58 pm - THANK YOU JEFFREY!
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| Monday, May 29th, 2006
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11:32 pm - Too bad you're beautiful.
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I dont even need to tell you this is about you because you already know.
And maybe its too soon to be talking so captively about this, and maybe Ive already said everything I should have, but I need to do this.
Thank you for being one of the most amazing people Ive ever met in my entire life.
Thank you for teaching me more than you can even imagine.
And after everything was said and done, Im glad I know you.
Because this pain I feel right now was worth ever single second of happiness I had with you.
And yes its hard right now, but we're both amazingly strong people and I know we're going to be ok.
And I hope that you know even though we arent what we used to be, that yes, I still love you as a person. Im just so grateful that we can see our relationship means something to both of us, even if we are just friends.
Even when we were together I considered you more than my boyfriend, you were my best friend too, and thats what made you something different than everybody in the past.
Honestly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being so amazing, thank you for listening to me, thank you for sticking with me through a lot of hard things I was going through, but most importantly, thank you for showing me that it is possible to fall in love. Because before you came along, I never believed it was possible.
And I still mean it when I say I love you.
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| Sunday, May 28th, 2006
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12:58 pm - Something I guess I'll just never understand...
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Why is it that people dont realize when a relationship ends, it ended for a reason.
And that reason is obviously because something wasnt working out.
So, why keep breaking up and getting back together?
Its stupid.
Stop kidding yourself. If it hasnt worked the first 2386 times, its not going to.
Unless sometimes seriously different has changed, which 99.9% of the time, nothing has.
Maybe I could understand if you break up once, and get back together ONCE.
But even thats kinda lame.
No offense to anybody.
Its just frustrating to me because my brother has been with his girlfriend for at least 3 years.. Im not even sure anymore, probably 4 years.
They keep breaking up, and getting back together. She's cheated on him. She treats him like garbage. But they keep getting back together.
Its obviously not working every time you get back together.. so, why hang on to that?
Does anybody understand that?
current mood: confused
current music: Teddy Geiger
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| Friday, May 19th, 2006
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12:47 am - Shout out your name so it echos in every room..
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My birthday was awesome.
This week has been amazing.
Life is good.
:]
current mood:  content
current music: Britney and Kevin - Chaotic DVD
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| Monday, May 1st, 2006
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10:12 pm
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There comes a time when you realize theres only so much you can do to help somebody before they have to start helping themselves.
Theres only so much you can do for a person before you need to let go, and though you wish you could do more it simply can not be done.
Anything else is out of your power, and out of your hands and into theirs.
I dont think it would be so hard to give people the power to help themselves if they were ready for it. The hard part is letting go after you've done all you can, but still feel like you havnt helped at all.
You cant make a person ready to help themselves.
And sometimes, people are never ready, some people are beyond help, theyre just too far gone.
Is it possible for people to change when they've been a certain way their whole lives?
Maybe, but even though it's in their best intrest to change, do they realy want to?
current mood:  worried
current music: Teddy Geiger
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| Monday, April 24th, 2006
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5:56 pm - My boyfriend is better than yours..
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Because when my car doesnt start and I spend the night at his house, he makes me waffles for breakfast.
And the best peanutbutter milkshake you will ever have in your life.
+10 points for me, -10 points for you because your boyfriend sucks.
We went to Chilis last night and I ate my whole salad like a heff. Other than that, things are good. :] I mean, besides my broken car.
current mood: chipper
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